Before I Lay Down to Sleep

Is it true
that at night time you cry?
Rolling from left to right there’s no one in sight
Is it true that you wish that you could change
Change your past so that the things you did before you wont do it twice the same
Is it true that you hold on to the memories that you thought you’d lose
Cause the idea that they are around and in your palm
let you know that at least you have something worth holding on
Is it true, that you cry at night when its dark
Hoping that no one sees and
no one knows your pain
to share that pain makes you weak and
you despise being lame
Is it true that your not as cold as it seem and that
within you got a lot of heat and
your burning up in side and
ya blood is beating that heart
faster and faster and faster
in hopes that it can warm up the temperature from the ice that surrounds it from all the hurt and pain that’s drowning it.
You have holes inside and your trying to fill them but your tired of forcing them
with them empty lies and empty promises
And things that people told you that the would do but didn’t do. And the things that you know could you do but didn’t do, and things that you know you should do but wouldn’t do.
It is true that at night time you cry
because you dreamed that things would be different but things are to much the same and you hope that things would change but it takes to much and its to long to hold on to change.
Or its to hard and to much of challenge to hold on to being who you believe you should be,
and knowing you know want to be, demanding that you grab your dream and be everything you wish to be.

Is it true that at night time you cry after looking in the mirror
after looking in the mirror
after looking in the mirror every night for the first time and only seeing a women scarred, scorned and filled with lies.
Your not happy with what your seeing so
during the day you live a lie
putting on a show that last in other minds
but its so far from the truth
And even you behavior confuses you
so at night you cry….
you cant take that person you see inside
and you want to believe that what’s behind close doors stays in the dark
and whats behind closed doors won’t eventually come to light.
So its only at night you don’t hide
you hurt like anyone else but its at night that you come out your shell
making sure that there is no one else who can testify to what they saw….
you dare not let them meet that women scorned.
Is it true that at night time you cry?
Your eyes fill up with water and the emotions run through you
you don’t know how to explain them and its hard to express them so you decide to suppress them
So its at night you cry.
But don’t feel alone cuz…..shhhhhh
Sometimes at night I cry,….ink